I have fought my whole life to not give up. I think about suicide daily. I always have. It’s normal enough for me now.
I have tried therapy, but the money always runs out. It runs out because I cannot work and deal with this at the same time. I have tried, and I have failed. More times than I care to recount.
Then things got worse…. Read more
I no longer go to therapy. I stopped going about a year ago because I just did not feel like I was getting anywhere. I was wrong. However, I have learned a lot over the last year and my life has changed as I have grown and gotten to know myself better. Read more
I have had many reoccurring dreams through out my life. This is a recollection of one where I am unable to move or speak that I have had since the age of 5. Read more
Recollection of a very graphic flashback. My memory of what I believe to be an example of child prostitution/pornography and ritualized sexual abuse. Read more
This is some further thought on an abuse story that describes why I have arachnophobia and how it relates to my brother. Read more